Today read in Deccan Chronicle news paper that one girl Kokila (14) suicided because she couldn't speak English fluently and was not doing well in academics. But in my sight for your parents you were important not your English and academics.There are so many boys and girls out there, struggling to make their communication skills better. You were only 14 there are so many guys like me in the world who still can't speak English fluently. But was it our fault?
I still remember when I was in 12th std and was not able to speak Hindi properly (As I came from a rural background, my native language was marwadi and believe me I heard this name "English medium" first time when I took admission in 9th Std in a school in Jhunjhunu City). If you will compare me with the guys who studied in English medium from nursery and will say you are weak at English, that's not fair. You are comparing two guys one who studied only last 4 years in English and other one who is studying from last 16-17 years in English. Compare me with anyone with whom I have studied till 12th who were also there in Hindi medium and tell.
No body has magic wand, it takes time. Be patient and keep a watch point on yourself whether you are improving or not on daily basis. If you are, then don't worry, You and your actions will be the answers for them who said "You can't do it." I will only say " Do it and prove them wrong. Death is not a solution and will never be. Improve yourself on daily basis, irrespective of what people say." People don't see your efforts, they keep their eyes always on results. Don't give control of your life in other's hands.Do want you want and enjoy, after all It's your life. Don't end your life because of some irresponsible comments from your friends or colleagues.